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I will fill this space

December 11, 1998 · College Poetry
2 min readConstellation: Fear and Perception
Writing & CraftPolitics & SocietyPhilosophy & Existence
I will fill this space til there’s nowhere left to fall. The case being that the fear of being naked lies at the heart of your religion—you are frightened of the power to destroy, so thus, you hesitate to create. Letting everything go to something else somewhere else— what is left but death and what is death but comfortable solitude— you can shrink away from everything you desire until everything goes away and you are left with nothing. I refuse to partake of your wafers— I will eat meat. Spawned from this idea: think lions attacking buffalo. Cluster of frightened closed ones, grouped together in fear, soft ones live in concrete buildings, high off the ground, shelter themselves in blindness, watching TV, listening to others tell them what to think, travel in cars, sealed off, shrinking away from their own power, they let their environment dominate them, thus are there the open ones, living in the earth, listen to the people screaming in their silence, solitary in a world full of noise and movement, they destroy the soft ones, they feed upon their fear, picking off their children and eating their meat. Idea of their God: their God is distant, not them, not of their world, far away. Demons, take away the weak and make stronger the race. Alright, take it to individual: animal self, inner, an open awareness of death, the edge, boundaries are defined by each moment in the struggle for life, thus, always on the attack social self, outer, ignores presence of death, sheltered, boundaries concrete, however, fear of the unknown puts one always on the defense conflict between the two within the sphere of the moment—outer vs inner, boundary vs infinity, offense vs defense mind attempts to escape moment by focusing upon that which is eternal. thus: moment vs. eternity soul attempts to resolve conflict: thus preserver vs destroyer God: that which is beyond, and simply is. animal—the earth, the body, weed, the sun, the moon, rhythm, inward, preserver \--In themoment social—buildings, masks, acting, outward, words, destroyer / mind—transcends time through interconnecting thought, fills, hoards experience \--Out soul?—energy, outward expanding, empties / Demonstrate through individual, atman, going through a moment of time. Setting: city-jungle, walking down sidewalk The entangling body forks upward, erupting in verdant tongues of light. Alone in its allotment of earth, the roots ravage the bordering concrete It will be cut back before it will be allowed to do more damage.